I'm Really Bad at Updating This Thing

I always mean to come back and update this blog but I forget. I fail at blogging. :( Anyways, since the last time I've written, I've gotten my HSG and it was all clear! Finally, some good news after all the bad news we had been getting! DH had his consult with the urologist a couple of weeks ago. He ordered some blood work and another SA. We're waiting on results from those. DH decided to quit smoking!!! I can't remember if that was in my last post or not but he's down to 4 cigarettes a day compared to the pack a day he had been smoking. I'm so proud of him! Although, he has been a bit of a bear and a lot more snippy than usual. That has been hard because usually I'm the snippy one (one of my many flaws) so we snap at each other a lot more than we used to. For the most part, though, it hasn't been too bad.

This past cycle was really hard to deal with. I was really hopeful because I had had my HSG and the doctor told me there was an increased chance of getting pregnant the cycle after an HSG. I knew I shouldn't be too hopeful but alas, I was and I was crushed when AF came. It was the first time DH has ever really said anything about this whole ordeal. I came out of the bathroom, looking devastated, and he hugged me and told me he was so sorry. That was enough to put me over the edge! I've given myself until January and then I'll ask for an RE referral. The PA at my OB office told me during my very first visit that whenever I'm ready to move on, just say the word and she'll refer me. I'm just not ready to take that step yet for two reasons. 1) I know it's stupid but I feel like I'm admitting defeat. I know that is absolutely not the case but that's how it feels. 2) I'm afraid of what the RE will say. Reality is that we might have to do IUI/IVF and since insurance doesn't cover it, we'll have to pay out of pocket. We just don't have the money for that which means we would be benched until we could save up enough. And what if it didn't work the first time? To be told that we may not have children in the near future would devastate me and I just am not ready to handle it yet. I just want to live in my ignorant little bubble for a while longer.

In other news, we got a new baby! Her name is Penny and we got her over Labor Day weekend. My aunt's cat had kittens and she basically gave us no choice in taking one.  She's 12 weeks old this week and she's getting so big! She was so tiny when we got her and now she's halfway to full grown it seems. It makes me so sad. Jasmine and Charlie were not fans at first but they've grown to love her (Charlie loves her more than Jazz, lol). She's so bad, though! One morning, I woke up to her tearing the tissues out of the box on my nightstand. When she got yelled at, she tried to eat my wedding ring and she when she got yelled at for that, she climbed the curtains. She always likes to "take baths" with me. She sits on the edge of the tub and licks at the water. She fell in a couple weeks ago and again today. It's quite comical.

 

And.....my sister, dad, and I went SKYDIVING!!!! It was amazing! One of the best things I've ever done! I would do it again in a heartbeat. However, I would recommend doing it in late August, early September or in late May, early June. It was a beautiful day in late September but it was really freaking cold at 11,000 feet in the air free falling 120mph. Now that we've gone tandem, we can go by ourselves but we have to do static line x 3 (basically the shoot pulls for me so I don't have to do it) and then we could get licensed! I'm seriously considering doing it. I loved it!